i made him cry

I thought it was nothing. It was just a simple argument just like what we always had. But he cried, and it hurts me. I have no respect to the person responsible for everything that I am. I said everything that will make my point to be the right one. It all happened because of my YOUNGER sister.

THE STORY:

My mother asked me to call my sister to ask about the assignment about optical illusions, wherein she told my mother to buy charts for illustrations. As I called her, she shouted at me, without letting me express of what I was told to say. My blood rises and shouted back the word "ATAI", and drop off the phone.

He scolded me. And I answered back. We argued and argued, my OLDER sister kept on telling me to stop but I continued. He stood up and talk of how disrespectful I am and blah2x, with a sobbing voice heading to his bedroom.

I held my head high, as if I was not affected at all. But deep within, it's tearing me apart. It was the first time seeing him cry. I made him cry. I made my father cry. I hate myself for being stubborn, disrespectful.

I did not go to any commitments I had on that day (SUNDAY 02092010). I don't feel strong enough to interact with people and pretend.

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